Change, she is a coming.

I have always had a problem with change.  Whenever things are different from what I know I can't stand it.

 When I would go to summer camp I would cry my eyes out, so upset that I wasn't home with my family, with what was familiar. I remember the last day of 8th grade I was so upset that I was going to be at Seton and not Visitation anymore.

Then after highschool I had to transition from Seton to Wright State. My Freshman year was very emotional and a tough one. I don't know what I would have done without my Fuzzies Sophomore year.

Then their was going from college to where I am now. I graduated in 2005 (and moved into our house the same day), got married in 2006, had Nicholas in 2007 and Jack in 2008. Switched jobs a couple of times and I am finally back to being comfortable. Back to not being anxious. I love it.

Now I am the me I knew I always was. So different from the me at Seton and the me at Wright State but totally the me I have always been.

But...I have to say this transition from 2010 to 2011 is really hitting me hard. I've been out of Seton for 10 years! How can that be that I am so removed from something that I so heavily identify myself with. I have been away from WSU and my AXiDs for 5 years.  I have been away from the American Diabetes Association for 4 years (4 years since I have been to a Diabetes Camp, unbelievable).

It will be 3 years since I last had a baby and 4 years since I didn't have any at all. 

But, change is good. I know I have some challenges ahead (Nicholas will be a teenager in just 9 years!) of me, but I am happy where I am. I am happy where I am going.

Go tell John, change is coming, but I'm ok with that.